What happened to me? It truly has been a busy, emotional, and demanding time that I had to stop blogging, and for some time, stop crocheting. At this time, I am on auto-pilot. I am an emotional mess.
As I was at Stitches East!, my father-in-law was very ill and was hospitalized. He was very combative to everyone, including his wife. On Halloween, he was transferred to Hospice, where within 24 hours, slipped into a coma, and died. Since the in-laws are in Florida, and we live in NY, it was not possible for immediate funeral. So he was cremated. I did two more shows in November, but my heart was not really into it. Understandably, I am in mourning. We had a quiet Thanksgiving dinner with Steve's brother, John. My family was a bit upset I chose to stay home. I was just not in the festive mood.
December arrives and during Holiday Break, we drove down to Florida to be with Mom for Christmas. We also picked up Dad's ashes, so we can hold proper services in May. Came back in time to celebrate a very subdued NYE with friends. And since the New Year, all I have been doing is work, eat, and sleep. Very little crochet.
Just last week, my precious Pomeranian, Xena had passed away in her sleep. She was 16, and now I feel so lost without her gazing at me, and watching what I do. Lady and Daisy are also feeling the loss. I feel like I am stuck in auto-pilot almost all the time. And I just feel so sad.
I am crocheting again, just not with the same enthusiasm. I guess I just need time...
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